i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

i hate my parents...i hate them.... dad never spends any time with me
and mom is always at work and when she comes home all she wants to do
is play her stupid game. when i do want attention, iain always seems
to take it away from me. it causes me so much pain. i hate my life and
everyone in it. it always seems to go right over everyones head that
when i say that i'm fine i'm really not. why can't i just be checked
into somewhere where people will give me attention and they will treat
my disease instead of all of these fake motherfuckers.

Today I was thinking of just staying at home for the day. Nope, I was
forced in. Around 11:00am I called home to see if someone could bring
me home. Declined again. About an hour and a half before it was time
to go home, we were called up to the top floor of our building and
there was a camera and some microphones set up. Apparently someone had
won a contest and so we got to be on the radio. I got to speak. MLIA.

~Vgirl

I just spent the whole day at home after doing 24 hours worth of
performances and practices for the new play of IRL: In Real Life that
I am in. I'm trying to make a website for the group that I am with for
the different productions and stuff, but it's a lot of work and I
don't know if my director would like the site or if our actually techy
will make one that she will like more.

So I worked from home today and didn't accomplish anything. I have to
write and draw a children's book and I have 21 pages to draw for
Friday. Oh how joyous it is to draw for kids.

I'll try to update tomorrow.

~Vgirl

I'm pissed at the moment and I bet most of my friends know why. I hate
voting especially when my friends have to come out crying in the
process. What I find crap is that they say that it gives everyone a
chance to be leader, but this is a big stinking lie! Some people have
been leaders more then once, and I don't hold anything against those
people, It's the system that I find crap. I personally think that if
someone has already been a leader, then they should step down, at
least for a year, and let other people have the chance to become
leaders as well. This time around (this is just an estimation, not
fact) 4/6 people chosen to be leaders, were already leaders last year.
If there aren't enough people applying to be leaders, sure, let the
people who've already done it have a go, but man some people have
never been leaders while others have done it a whole lot. Please I
have nothing against anyone who is now a leader, but people were
crying for god sakes.

On a lighter note, you know how when things say that there a certain
flavor (my Green Tea gum) and in tiny letters at the bottom it says
"With a hint of MINT". You ever notice how it never tastes like the
flavor it advertises and always tastes like that "hint" of mint.

Have you ever just gotten to the point of your life where everything
that you used to do previously makes you sick to your stomach? See
that's what has happened to me. I used to spend my whole day just
sitting downstairs on the computer. Now every time I go downstairs and
go into my computer room I start getting sick feelings in my stomach.
If I sleep in too late, I get sick to my stomach. I hate it and it
just seems like a funk I've gotten into. I'm using my laptop right now
and hopefully I'll sit outside soon so I can get some sunlight on my
snow white skin.

 Been watching Video on Trial (a really good show) and the Food Network
which I love because it makes me hungry. I still can't find any
motivation to bake or cook anything which usually I get the minute I
see something delicious. Just look back to when I was a young kid. If
a Winnie the Pooh episode had anything to do with food, it was
officially my favorite. My life centers around food. XD

 Anyway I'm getting ready for the Cosplay BBQ in Edmonton which I will
be going to in cosplay. I'm really excited and looking forward to it.
I'm bringing my little Negi with me so he can be somewhat ready for
Animethon in August. Really proud of the work I did on my cosplay.
After the picnic I'll post some pictures of me in cosplay.

 ~Vgirl

I don't seem to know what's wrong. I'm just not hungry anymore, I
spend all my days in the comfort of my cool basement, just sitting on
the computer waiting for something to happen. I'm kinda worried about
myself but I don't know how to break the chain.

 I recently put up a topic on a forum to sell my work. I instantly got
hated for it. "Why would people pay for that, couldn't they just copy
and paste it", "Your drawing is way out of proportion", "It makes me
want to throw up", "You're just another anime artist wannabe". It got
taken down but it still haunts me. It has gotten to me so much that I
can't sleep at night and the more I think about, the more I want to
overdose on medication or cut myself.

 Today I've basically been coloring pictures in photoshop and editing
dolls from www.thedollpalace.com (I have them posted here). There's
nothing much else to do with my time. Oh and I did the first few steps
of the cosplay I'm going to be doing for the Cosplay BBQ in Edmonton.
Still need to get contacts but I'm probably not going to get those
till Animethon.

 So what do you guys think of me doing rants and reviews on here? I
have a few things lined up that I want to talk about and some stuff
that I have already done that I should put up. I want to know from you
guys since if you don't like it, it'll just take up space.

 Peace Out,
~Vgirl

I recently got in touch with a friend that I haven't seen in forever!
She's a great anime artist and someone that I look up to.
Last year we got into a big fight over something (I have no idea
what). I haven't told my mom yet since she hates this friend and would
try and talk me out of being her friend if I told her. My friend is www.iolis.deviantart.com
 
I just seem to keep all my problems to myself now. I used to be open
to her and would tell her everything, but I'm becoming distant. I
don't know if this is normal or not but sometimes I feel like I tell
my mother too much.
 
I scared the crap out of my friends last night. I was depressed, so I
ran away (which is how I solve all of my problems). I cried for an
hour under a tree. Usually all the friends that I get aren't real and
they stab me in the back, so I guess half of it was a test and the
other half was my depression. When I finally came out, they were all
bawling their eyes out. I never knew that people cared that much about
me.
 
Reviews are on their way!

 

A little self-portrait of myself, doing something that I love. Man I
wish I had those headphones, that would be so cool.
 
So I'm basically trapped inside my house with nothing to do, but study
and stuff. I need money to leave my house and go buy stuff, since I
don't have a car or a job yet. Just you guys wait, soon I'll be
cruising down the road in a nice......old car. Jeez, with what I have,
I could never get a new car, my parents would probably make me drive
one of theirs.
 
On another note, I'm new to this but I really need some money. I would
love to take any requests if you like. I say that you basically pay
what you think it's worth. I'm not too big on forcing the money out of
people. So, any requests would be appreciated.

Thanks!

~V

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