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What's been happening..

I don't seem to know what's wrong. I'm just not hungry anymore, I
spend all my days in the comfort of my cool basement, just sitting on
the computer waiting for something to happen. I'm kinda worried about
myself but I don't know how to break the chain.
 
I recently put up a topic on a forum to sell my work. I instantly got
hated for it. "Why would people pay for that, couldn't they just copy
and paste it", "Your drawing is way out of proportion", "It makes me
want to throw up", "You're just another anime artist wannabe". It got
taken down but it still haunts me. It has gotten to me so much that I
can't sleep at night and the more I think about, the more I want to
overdose on medication or cut myself.
 
Today I've basically been coloring pictures in photoshop and editing
dolls from www.thedollpalace.com (I have them posted here). There's
nothing much else to do with my time. Oh and I did the first few steps
of the cosplay I'm going to be doing for the Cosplay BBQ in Edmonton.
Still need to get contacts but I'm probably not going to get those
till Animethon.
 
So what do you guys think of me doing rants and reviews on here? I
have a few things lined up that I want to talk about and some stuff
that I have already done that I should put up. I want to know from you
guys since if you don't like it, it'll just take up space.
 
Peace Out,
~Vgirl

       
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Comments (6)

Jul 06, 2009
Gebadia Smith said...
Do you draw for other people or for yourself? See my mom wanted to write children's books but gave that up because of the cruelity of others.. I cannot count the times I have been laughed at for trying to build a facebook app.. Art is like any career you got to keep working at it, have the courage to see comments as a way to improve... have you considered art school? As for cutting yourself.. my chest is covered i scars.. amoung other things..I don't have answers except to say likely the people in your life likely don't get that either.. most won't understand and will be dismissive.. but you just got figure out a way past it.. one step at time.. and have faith there is something out there for you..
Jul 06, 2009
Gebadia Smith said...
I should of warned you of trolls... in most forums, in facebook groups and even in comments there are people termed trolls. They will say things to get a rise out of you, to make you feel bad about yourself. They are the most horrible people in the world because they twist your words and you will feel helpless.. and there is nothing you can do about it because the people who run these websites are fucken idiots and need to stick there head in a blender... but look at the bright side.. you had the courage to share.. is being an artist something you want to do.. if so what are you doing to get there because you will need to learn photoshop and other illlustrating software..
Jul 06, 2009
Gebadia Smith said...
Hey URLpirates is where I yell at website.. gebalove.com or gebalove.posterous.com or in the notes of my app http://cybersweetness.com is where I talk about my bouts with depression.. addictions.. life.. heartbreak and so forth... some of my stories may be too graphic..that said I really want to impress upon you baby steps.. I will do a series of blog posts on how young artists like yourself can develop their skillz because there is copyright issues.. there are places where you can sell your however you got to find the courage in you to not sit and wait for life to happen.. but to make it happen.. by learning photoshop, by learning illustrator because it can offer you a life of dreams.. sitting on a beach drawing your tablet... but it takes a lot of work to get there..
Jul 08, 2009
 said...
if you are truly sadden by the people's comments i am sorry but if you go somewhere where there is no one you will see truth in your own logec. i do this all the time "even though i do not communicate with anyone" somewhere there is true life what ever you may think that to be. the world is dark that is why you must push on to see the light. i will help out with books on getting them published if you would like?
Jul 08, 2009
Gebadia Smith said...
when are you going to blog next..
Jul 08, 2009
Gebadia Smith said...
How long does it take you to do a scketch... like a preart.. see I could use someone to make a quick mock up before we send it to the proffesional.. if you can take an email with some pictures, put it on paper quickly... it would help..it isn't option A but it gets you going in a way that gets you where you want to go.

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